…is gone…I feel shattered. This blog has been my companion this last year and it’s been serving several purposes in my life. There was a time when I was writing mostly for my self. About myself. To understand and find myself. Then came the time when you found me and all of the sudden I find myself writing about myself for YOU. To YOU. I went on explaining myself to YOU, so that YOU could understand me. That’s when this blog lost it’s meaning to me. It’s been to much about YOU. I need to get my agony out there. I need to let out my frustrations, my doubts, my anger, my joy, my happiness, my love, my hatred…Without having to explain myself. I rationalize enough in my analogue life. That’s what you don’t know about me, you see. I don’t say the things I write. They’re left unspoken. People around me often ask what I meant with these or those words, wonder who I was referring to…and I find it very uncomfortable. This is a safety valve to control my feelings and trick away insanity. Some things are not to be explained. Sometimes I can’t, sometimes I wont. Most of the times, I don’t want to. Explanations inhibit me. I don’t want to feel guilty about feeling the things I feel. I wouldn’t need this blog otherwise.
I like having you around. I don’t feel lonely anymore. Some of you I’ve got to know better and even share a lot in common. Some of you I know in real life, some I don’t. Some of you I want to know better. Who ever you are…feel free to keep reading me…
But I wont be explaining myself anymore. Not to YOU.
Hope you enjoy the Freakshow anyway….
Just let it Travel Thru.
Du trenger ikke forkalre noe som helst, det er jo din blogg å du bestemmer hva du vil skrive. Jeg blir like glad for meningsløs babbel bare du skriver litt oftere :) Savner bloggen din masse!
Tack Sissel. jag ska.
Du får skriva vad du vill, jag tänker fortfarande läsa o njuta… =) Hur går det med korten?? har dom utsett nån vinnare?? =)
This comes time after time. You get tired and weary of the blogging. Let it be. It come back to you.
But you still doesn’t think deepedition is a freakshow? ;)
@Karin: tack! tävlingen måste gå en etap till, nu till hösten. Håll Tummarna!
@Deeped:Well, I don’t know…is the Freakshow “deep” enought?
I just thought that Deepedition was a bit to “Hi class” for the freakshow…However…I heard that intellectuals are freaks too, so why not. You’re on my blogroll from now on. Let’s see if my readers can take the chock! ;)
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